And it's fantastic!!! I've taken, like, ten pictures so far, and we haven't even been here for six hours yet!!!! Our hotel suite is incredible, and we have a great view of the SPACE NEEDLE on the balcony-that-looks-like-it's-off-an-industrial-building, which is right outside our hotel room. It's fantasticall!!!!! I'm uploading my pictures as I type.

It's so strange to be here in the big city after being away for so long. The lights, the sounds....I've missed it all so much.

We really haven't done much. We visited our cousins in Tacoma for a while, and that was nice. I haven't seen any of them for as long as I can remember, so it was pretty cool. One of my cousins--Alex--and I are in a water-gun fight on Facebook, so that's pretty cool =)

Tomorow we have SO much planned. We go to the Experience Music Project (EMP), and the Science-Fiction Museum (SFM), which is all in the same building. We go to the Space Needle, and pretty much whatever we can get to, as well.

You can expect a helluva lot of photos from me!!! Cuz you know me, photos are my drug. Besides writing XD

OHOHOH, I almost forgot. I saw the Seattle Troll today. I have quite a few pictures of this monster. He's pretty scary.

ANYWAYZ, I love you all.

I'm so glad to be home!!!

SO THREE CHEERS FOR SPRING BREAK!!!!

And what better way to start it with a sunny day? Because it's insanely sunny and warm here. I'm loving it.

But, not only that, I get to go on a trip for Break. A kinda road trip, almost, because there's so many stops along the way....

And you'll never guess where I'm going.

SEATTLE, WASHINGTON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =D

You know, the home of the space needle and all of that.

ANYWAY, I was insanely happy for that, but insanely upset at the same time, because I would take billions of pictures, and I wouldn't even be able to post them all to Buzznet.

But guess what?

My mom's taking her laptop, and you know what that means.

YOU GET THE PICTURES THE NIGHT AFTER I TAKE THEM!!!!!!!!!!! =D

I'm freaking out, incase you can't tell.

Anyway, I'm taking a billion pictures today, and I'll take a billion pictures tomorow, and for the next three days!!!

Not only is there all of that

(as if that weren't enough),

two of my best friends are going to be in Seattle, as well!!!!

We're not going together

(sadly)

But still!!! They'll be in the same city, and prolly doing mostly the same things!!! Ya know, because it's going to be all up in the touristy part of town

=D

SO ANYWAYZ, I'm psyched.

Now I'm off to go and relieve my excitedness by playing the Wii for a bit, or maybe going outside to take pictures of the sunshine.

I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!!!! =)

Monday-

I have this HUGE project to finish durring "computers" class, which has turned into woodshop thanks to this project. I'm just hoping my group and I can finish building our minature playground.....0.0

Track after school until 4:45. Then I FINALLY get home at about 5:05ish, I live about twenty minutes outside of the city where I go to school (cuz the place where I SHOULD go to school SUCKS!)

Tuesday-

Track after school. I may leave early, though, because of the next bit...

Choir concert-call time 5:44.

So, I get off Track at 4:45. I go home, shower, get in my concert clothes, do my makeup, straighten my hair, and get out of the house by....oh, say, 5:20ish to make sure I get there on time.

Now, I don't know about any of you, but since I'm 14, I time to do everything...it usually takes me a half hour to straighten my hair and do my makeup, much less do all that AND a shower, too!!

STRESSSTRESSSTRESS!!!!!!!!!

I can't wait until the concert...I'm psyched for it, and Track too, but AUGH I wish it wasn't all so close together.....XP

I love you all, hope your next two days go better than mine =)

If you go back just ONE journal entry, you'll see my immense excitement at the field trip I was going on. I was gonna be gone for the whole entire day, go hang out with ALL THREE of my best friends--one who doesn't go to school with me!--, and just generally have a blast going to a college for a day.

Um, can anyone say, NOT?

There were four problems, put in chronological order.

1) It was WAY icy outside, and almost too dangerous to drive on. Nonetheless, and true to their stubborn word, the bus made it to AMS and started its way toward the other school (where me and one of my best friends were waiting).

2) As the bus was driving out of the parking lot, the radiator broke. Everyone had to be evacuated off the bus and put onto another one. With a fifteen-minute delay, the bus started again for the other school, making it this time.

3)The two of us got on board. The counculer for the school was supposed to be going, but he didn't. We were one shaperone short.

AND

4) When we got about 45 minutes in to the 3-hour long drive, our bus driver started to have an alergic reaction, and her tounge swelled up, and she had to be taken to the ER. We couldn't get another bus driver, so our trip is "postponed", but we all think it's going to be cancelled. My teacher and I don't think there's any way we could be shoved into their scheduling before June, but hey! I hope they do!

ANYWAY, so after all the huge dissapointment, my mom still made me go to school for a half a day, where I had to go to my least-favorite classes, math and P.E. I didn't even have choir that morning to balance it out! I just had a huge whopping plate of dissapointment.

Oh well. Life sucks, and then you die, I guess.....

Why am I awake so early? Simple. Because, at the ripe old age of 14, I'm going to college.

No, seriously. I'm going to go check out the University of Oregon, to scout out colleges, and hopefully get some people who would be willing to give me scholarship money.

More to come later, and prolly pictures, too. I LOVE YOU ALL!

Allow me to exaggerate a memory or two
Where summers lasted longer than
Longer than we do
Where nothing really mattered except for me to be with you

When all of the boys went up to the mountains, they didn't bring anybody with them, they didn't go anywhere. They stayed hold up in there, where nothing mattered except for the music and each other. It also seemed to be forever until they came back, and they left in July. In the summer.

But in time, we all forgot, and we all grew.

Panic "grew up", in their own words. They dropped the eyeliner and skinny jeans and band tees and Converse for a more hippie/country style. Many of us still mourn the Ryliner....*tear* They seemed to forget who they started out to be. Which isn't a bad thing...

Your melody sounds as sweet
As the first time it was sung
With a little bit more charecter for show

Ryan keeps on telling people he's happy with Keltie, he's happy with his band, he's happy, he's happy, he's happy. He was happy before, too, it's just now there's more behind it.

And by the time your father's heard of all the wrong you've done
Well, I'm putting out the lantern, find your own way back home.

Ryan's dead father has got a pretty long list, apparently, to hear about everything Ryan's done, good and bad. So Brendon's saying, "You're going to have to choose eventually between me and her. I won't help you, I won't rush you, but you've got to pick."

If I've forgotten how to sing before I've sung this song
I'll write it all across the wall before my job is done

Brendon's telling Ryan, "Hey, if you don't ever pick, I'll tell everyone before we leave the scene, before we go out of style. Everyone will know everything before the end."

And I'll even have the courtesy of admitting I was wrong
As the final words before I'm dead and gone.

Brendon doesn't think he'll have to go to that extreme to get Ryan to choose, but if he does, he'll admit he was wrong before they leave.

You've never been so divine
In accepting your defeat
And I've never been more scared to be alone

Ryan knows he's wrong. He's told Brendon plenty of times, and he's perfected how he's done it now so Brendon feels for him every time. Brendon's scared to be without Ryan, and he can't help that he loves him. He just can't help it.

If love is not enough to put my enemies to sleep
Well, I'm putting out the lantern, find your own way back home.

This is Brendon saying, "Ryan, you're going to have to eventually pick me or her. Make up your mind, I'm not helping you, but you have to pick." He never did seem to like Keltie much...

THAT'S JUST MY INTERPETATION. If you think I'm a complete wack-job and that this makes NO SENSE, that's okay.

I'm a die-hard Rydon lover, mkay? My fantasy is finally coming true. Maybe. I mean, who else would it be?

Nooooo, this will be FULL of action, and hyperness, and the feeling of getting together over one hundred teenage kids that are all very motivated leaders, and some more kids who aren't so motivated, but still would like to learn how.

It's the incredible words of an inspirational speaker that everybody can relate to, that's funny, and that loves to have people move around.

It's the sound of connections being made, the scribbling of email addresses, and cell phone numbers being typed in.

It's the hyperness of all those kids being crammed together in one small place.

WELCOME TO OUR OASC LEADERSHIP CONFRENCE!

That's right, you all, I'm going to an OASC Leadership Confrence tomorow, and because I'm so psyched about it, right now I'm charging my camera and CLEARING it of ALL pictures/other media(sound/video), so I will have a BLANK slate, to take pictures and videos of absolutely EVERYTHING necessary. And even some non-necessary stuff.

In short, I'm going to take photos of my day at the confrence, and post them to Buzznet. And maybe, if I get the time, I'll use MovieMaker and make a film out of it. =D

BUTANYWAYX, to start, I have to take the photos. Since I don't have a cellyphone, I can't post them to Buzznet as I take them, so I'm going to post them tomorow evening, whenever I get back. It'll be pretty great, I promise =D

LOVE TO YOU ALL!

Lainnie

(P.S.-Ask me no questions, and I will tell you no lies.)

Help them realize that there's more behind this crazy thing called life than what you can see right now.

That tears are okay to cry, and sometimes you have to get away for a little while.

That hope and help are sometimes pretty damn scary things, but are completely real and there.

Proving that the teenage population isn't just angst and hurt and horror. We have hope, too.

Maybe more than the adults know/have themselves.

Sorry for my philisopical mood, you guys. These kinda things get to me

I love you all, and if you're EVER in pain-if you just need somebody to talk to, somebody to REALLY listen, somebody to care...

I'm always here for you. I love you, I honestly do.

Lots of love-

Lainnie

"The stars are always there, but we miss them in the dirt and clouds. We miss them in the storms. Tell them to remember hope. We have hope."-Renee Yohe

ANYWAYZ, today I got both The Cab(Whisper War) and The Academy Is...((fast times at barrington high)) CDS TODAY!!! And I'm downloading them right now to my iPod, so that's why I decided to sneak on Buzzynett to see what's up.

And what do I find, but that I have a message, and it's from my favorite SocialVibe friend!!! She has a Buzznet now, as well!!!!

If you people could be so kind as to help me show her the ropes, I was never really that great of a teacher....

Anywayz, she's really nice and sweet, and I'm sure you'll love her.

I LOVE YOU ALL!!!

Lainnie

(P.S. to adani-I keep on trying to comment back on your comment of my makeup photo(sorry for being redundant), but Buzznet's being stupid and won't let me. Anywayz, I'm not sweet, you most definently are. Sweet, kind, and caring. love ya lots!)

I've been trapped at home for more than THREE EFFING WEEKS and it hasn't snowed much besides Christmas. In fact, the snow around here was entirely gone until yesterday afternoon. Yesterday, it was just a little dusting, which turned to rain and froze over the snow just on the grass. The roads were still clear, and I was excited to be able to go back to school and see all of my lovely friends that I haven't talked to besides emails once a week. I miss them all so much.....

Anyway, after I post this, I'll take a picture to show you how hard it's comign down ou tside now. AND it's starting to go over the roads. My area of the US reccently underwent a "terrible winter storm", so say our newscasters, but really wasn't that horrible. They hadn't said anything about more snow. We were supposed to be DONE.

So, I'm pissed. I want to effing go to school, and I might be STUCK HOME?

I think the weather gods don't like Christmas music. This is just gonna push our concert back even farther(My school choir WAS going to do a Christmas concert the Wednesday before Christmas Eve, but that got effing CANCELED DUE TO THE EFFING SNOW[I have a picture to go with this, look through them]), and I've been REALLY REALLY looking forward to this!!! I love to sing soo much, and this just ticks me off....

Anywayz. your forecaster from my area is off to take a picture of the snow to further illustrate my story, I love you all so much.

Love to you all, and I hope school goes well for you(if you go back tomorow!)