The World Is Ugly, But You're Beautiful To Me

Okay, so Perfect is gone.

Dunzo.

Forever deleted.

No more.

A friend of mine enlightened me to some scary shit. Very scary.

The likes of which I'd never heard.

The likes that involve Norwegians who I love very much.

I can't do anything to make them dissapointed in me.

Dear lord Bob above.

Small silent panic attack.

Love to you all.

Sorry if this doesn't make any sense.

The world isn't made for understanding and love.

This is just my outlet right now.

Drama ensures.

Deep breaths.

Calm the fuck down.

Inhale.

Exhale.

Love is not evident.

Not in this world.

Inhale.

Exhale.

I can't dissapoint.

I love you all.

May delete this account soon.

Will contact my close friends if I get a new one.

Inhale.

Exhale.

Breathe.

I love you

Okay, so if you don't know by now, I left Buzznet again.

And now I'm back to edit my account.

Why, you all ask?

Hm....AUNT SOMEONEWHOSNAMEIWONTPUTHERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My awesome aunt found my account and looked at everything. I nearly gave her a heart attack.

No, I'm not back on Buzznet. Well, I might be. I've been thinking about this for a while.

I LOVE YOU GUYS TO PIECES.

Oh, and I'm deleting Perfect. I'm really sorry about that, my lovelies, but I've got to.

Maybe I'll post the rest of Secrets And Lies(yes, I continued it on my other site).

LOVE TO YOU ALL-

rockerchic22

So, I'm trying something new, cuz you all know how much I like to do that.

Since I have a diary and I rarely write in it, but I want to keep track of my life, I think I'll start doing an internet journal. Or a blog, whatever you want to call it. So, if you get bored easily, then don't read. If you want to read, go ahead. I realize that my life is pretty boring, but I still want to type/write/whatever about it. Cuz that's just me. Plus, I might get story ideas.

Anyway, my iPod broke a couple of weeks ago, and my friend Kristen burned me these cds so that way I would have some good music to listen to(because my cd collection isn't very big, but it's slowly expanding). I never got a track list, so over MSN, I'm giving her the first song lyric, and she's telling me artist, song name, and album. Sometimes she doesn't know what it is, though, so I have to listen to the chorus, and sometimes I can't understand what they're saying at all, so we have to put the song into a sharing folder so she can figure it out. And even then she doesn't know, so it just gets more confusing. It's really funny at times, though.

Kristen, Courtney, Gabbi and I had a movie night on Tuesday, and my sister, Chrissy, her friend Zoey, and Kristen's sister Wendy were all there, too. We went and rented four movies, Sweeney Todd, Tim Burton's The Nightmare Before Christmas, Corpse Bride, and Across The Universe. It was Tim Burton night, needless to say. Well, except for Across The Universe. But we didn't watch that one anyway.

Chrissy didn't want to watch Sweeney Todd, and wanted me to stay with her while the rest of the group watched it. I was like NO WAY, then Zoey decided to stay with her. So I got to watch Sweeney kill people, and Gabbi just had a blast watching it(Gabbi's into the whole gore/blood thing //_^). Then we watched Corpse Bride, which I've never seen before. It was really good.

Did I mention that I felt sick the whole time, and thought I was going to throw up twice? Yeah, it was bad. But, we left at 10:10, Chrissy and I, because I had a doctor's appointment the next day. And, other than that, nothing interesting.

My little cousin is turning 6 this weekend, so her and her family are down at the campground, which is about a half hour away from where I live. Maybe not even that much. So I hope that we'll go down to see her, because I love her so much.

Anyway, I've probably bored you all to death with my first ever blog, so I'll leave you now.

lovelovelove...

Okay, first the happy news

Today is my sister(Chrissy's) Birthday today!!! EVERYBODY HAVE A FREE GABEQUILLA ON ME!!!!!!!

(if you don't know what that means, go check out the die-hards forum)

So, here we go.

Singing happy birthday to Chrissy, who's turning 12.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR CHRISSY

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!!

WE LOVE YOU!!!!!!

Okay, now for my depressing news.

I'm going on hiatus for a while.

In other words, I'm not going to be on Buzznet for a while.

It's just not fun anymore.

I'm going to miss you guys, all of you.

But I just can't do anything with Buzznet right now.

I love you

And I hope you don't hate me

I'm exausted and I don't know why
I've spent my entire day inside
Maybe it was the emotional stress
That so many people love to put on my happiness
My mind is a wreck, it's a wonder I can think straight
Through all of the nights I've stayed up so late
Just thinking about my life
This takes a long time, I expect you know why
The headaches are coming back again
It seems that I have forgotten
To get the pain meds from the cabinent
But I'm to exausted to go get them
Maybe later, if I have the engergy and time
I'll go take the whole bottle and die
I smile to myself, I've thought of this many times
But the truth is, I don't have the courage to commit suicide
So don't be worried my friends, I'm just going through a hard time
I'll get through this, and on with my life

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I was bored, and my head hurt, so I decided to write a poem about a depressed person(boy or girl, IDK which). Uploaded to {It's All About Poems}. Hope you liked.

I AM SO SORRY

As most of you know, I've been gone for a hell of a long time.

And i am deeply sorry.

And I know that doesn't make it okay at all

And I know that I've been pretty stupid

Because I don't even have an excuse

Except for me being lazy

I'm replying to everyone's notes and messages as fast as I can

I really am sorry

To all of the Die Hards

To Juyla

To Anais

To Chloe

To Madlips

And to everyone else

I am sorry.

I love you

okay, having a bit of a bad day.....ugh......

first off, for those of you who don't know, I had my tonsils taken out on Wednesday, so my throat is killing me. It's worse today than yesterday, but it's not as bad as it was Wednesday.

Okay, number two, Danny Noriega got kicked off of American Idol.

*tears*

Wondering why I loved him so much?

Here's two examples.

http://www.glitter-graphics.com/videos/details.php?video_id=rSLKZoWq6m4&title=Danny+Noriega+VS+Simon+Cowell+%28American+Idol+Top+12+Males%29

http://www.glitter-graphics.com/videos/details.php?video_id=W4VXprk5uxs&title=Danny+Noriega+VS+Simon+Cowell+-+THE+SEQUEL+%28American+Idol%29

Who can't love the (ONLY!!) guy who gives Simon crap for what he says?

Plus, I just loved the way he sang. He made me smile every time I saw him.

And now, he's gone.

But, this is NOT the last time I'm gonna hear about him, though.

That I am sure of.

I had to write this.

It's pointless.

But oh fucking well.

Emotional stress loves me.

GACK I love the new song "Nine in the Afternoon" by Panic at the Disco!!!!!!! If you haven't heard the recorded over version yet, go to http://myspace.com/panicatthedisco and listen to it!!!!!!!! And, becauase I'm a total dork and I have nothing better to do, I'm going to listen to the song and type ALL of the lyrics!!!!! Sound good, yes? <--(kinda creepy, I know...)

Nine in the Afternoon-Panic at the Disco(it's been forever since we've gotten a full recorded song!!!!!)

Back to the street where we began
Feeling as good as love you can you know(IDK about that line....)
Yea we're feeling so good
Thinking of things we shouldn't read
Looks like the end of history as we know
It's just the end of the world
Back to the street where we began
Feeling as good as love you can, you know
Into a place where thoughts can bloom
Into a room where it's Nine in the afternoon
And we know that it could be
And we know that it should
And you know that you feel it too
Cuz it's Nine in the afternoon
And your eyes are the size of the moom
As good as you can so you do
We're feeling so good just the way that we do
When it's Nine in the afternoon
And your eyes are the size of the moom
As good as you can so you do
We're feeling so good just the way that we do
Back to the street
Down to our feet
Losing the feeling of feeling
Unique
Do you know what I mean?
Back to the place
Where we used to say
"Man, it feels good to feel this way"
Now I know what I mean(good, cuz I sure as hell don't O_o)
Back to the street
Back to the place
Back to the room where it all began
[He-he!]
Back to the room where it all began
Cuz it's Nine in the afternoon
And your eyes are the size of the moom
As good as you can so you do
We're feeling so good just the way that we do
When it's Nine in the afternoon
And your eyes are the size of the moom
As good as you can so you do
We're feeling so good just the way that we do
When it's Nine in the afternoon
And your eyes are the size of the moom
As good as you can so you do
We're feeling so good just the way that we do
When it's Nine in the afternoon
[Woo-ooo]

I have no fucking idea what that song is about...OH WELL!!!!!!! I LOVE IT ALL THE FUCKING SAME!!!!!

I love you all,
LainnieFeelzLikeDaShitzRightNow!!!!!!!!!!

I'm kinda freaking out right now.....

I've FINALLY (HUGE emphasis on finally) figured out how to make backrounds on Paint........and I am like FREAKING OUT!!!!!!!!!! HAHA YESAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Just thought you should know. I'm going to be making another backround for the Die-Hards, I think, and I'm going to be making backrounds for me and whoever the hell else wants them. ^_^ I'M SO FREAKING EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh, and I've written two Frerards, and a Waycest. I haven't typed them, but I wrote them in math class cuz I was bored. ^_^

I love you all,

Lainnie!
(is really hyper and is going to be a mass murderer, she just found out.)

Okay, I'ma kinda mad, no, I'ma REALLY mad, and it's about something I can do nothing about, as far as I can see.

Don't believe me? Here are some examples.

  I am personally annoyed by this one, being bi and feeling I'm too fat and I love poetry.

NOTE-I DISSAGREE WITH ALL THIS ANTI-EMO BULLSHIT. THESE PEOPLE NEED TO STFU.

I'm sorry if this is annoying to you, but I had to have a good rant. These people really bug the hell out of me. And this isn't even all of it. Go to http://photobucket.com/images/anti%20emo/ and look at what some people have to say, this just sickens me.

I love you all,

Lainnie

Okay, so, to start of my randomness, here is my Quizilla page. Go look, or I will eat you.(I'm kidding, but really, go look at it)

http://quizilla.com/users/panicrockchic22/

And anyone who looks at my page will have to come look at yours, too, so don't you DARE not go look. Okay, done with that rant, let me start another.

I have to read the little bulletin thingys, because I'm weird like that, and I've opened two today that say I will die before tomorow night. I say I don't care, and I'm really hoping I don't die. If I don't, then I'ma gonna post again and say, "HEY, LOOK, I'M SUPPOSED TO BE DEAD BUT I'M NOT SO HA!!!!!!!!!!!!!" And then I'll laugh at them. Okay, done with that rant, now, too.

Now I have a cbox, I think they're awesome. Want one? Go to

http://www.cbox.ws

and get your cbox!!! Or you can go to my Quizilla page and click "Get a Cbox!" and get your cbox there. Leave me a comment in my cbox if you go to my page, I'll love you forever if you do ^_^

I also love pandora to pieces!!!!!!!!!!!

http://www.pandora.com

Enter your fav song or artists, and they'll give you music alot like it, same genre, almost, but if you like lots of guitar, they'll give you lots of songs with alots of guitar. Like vocals more? They'll give you more vocals(pandora's where I found The Academy Is... and Panic! at the Disco). And once you have all those new amazing new songs, go to

http://www.projectplaylist.com

and create a playlist with all those new favorite songs!!!!!!! ^_^ It's the perfect plan, and I thought of it all by myself. GO ME!!!!!!!!!!

Okay, now your probably all bored to death, and I need to do a few things on Quizilla anyway(and a few things here, too), so I'll talk to you alls later. Oh, and for my Rydon lovers, I'm thinking really hard, the music is helping, and I'm reading a ton of other fanfics so I can get an idea of how I want to write this one...I think I'll have it up by the New Year, just maybe...

I love you all,

Lainnie

(is in love with the Internet again XD)

PS I have a Christmas tree...gifts are appreciated, and I'm gonna give you one even if you don't give one to me, because I love you all!!

I got tagged, but I'm not going to make you write one of these if you don't want to.

1. Good health to all(that includes cancer, alzenhimers, and all mental diseases)

2. Peace on Earth(because how could we enjoy our good health if there is war and people are still getting hurt?)

3. A laptop(I have to use the family computer with a humongous screen.....)

4. For my parents to trust me more

5. For my life to lift up a little bit

6. To be able to smile because I am truly happy.

7. An iPod nano(the new kind)

8. For my friends to love me for me.

Okay, so if you read this, your SUPPOSED to do a journal like this.

But I'm not making you, I'm just going to torture you for it forever......

Love you all!!!
Lainnie

Okay I know that probably most of the people have never heard of or don't like or don't listen to Simple Plan, but they're new video is out, and it is just about the funniest video in the world, I think.

Or maybe it's just me being weird.

Here's the link to the video on their site, if you want to leave a comment put in a fake email address. I love you all!!!

http://www.simpleplan.com/2007/12/06/simple-plan-new-album-cover

Okay, tons of people are doing this, I figured I probably should too.

Most of the people on my friends list I have never talked to, gotten a note from, or replyed to ANY of my notes. If this is you (and you know who you are), then I'm deleting you. I'm sorry, but I just don't like being ignored.

And if you talk to me, or if you write me, or any of those typa things, don't worry about it(you know who you are, too)

Okay, something blows me away every single time this happens.

Casey Calvert, guitarist of Hawthorne Heights, died on Friday night in his sleep.

He was only 26.

Why do these kinds of things happen?

Maybe I'm making a big deal out of nothing, but this just gets to me. It always just gets to me. It bugs me!!! WHY do people die so young? does anybody have an explanation?

And for those of you who are saying "Drug overdose" or something like that, Casey was doing nothing illegial when he went to bed that night.

I wish I had answers, but since I don't, if you do, please give me some. I'm in a state of shock right now, that's probably why it's taking a while to sink in.

Until then, R.I.P, Casey. We love you.

To all who read this(on time or late), I hope you have(or had, if you read this after)a happy Thanksgiving.

While thinking about Thanksgiving, how many people acually think about what they're thankful for? I know I usually don't, but let's see if today I can break this streak and list five things I'm thankful for.

1.My house
2.My friends(on Buzznet and in real life)
3.My family
4.My iPod
5.The mere fact that I'm alive

So, can any of you guys who read this tell us five things your thankful for? On time or late, I don't care, as long as whenever you read this, you post five things your thankful for. I love you all!!

-Rockerchic22